Showing posts with label boys. Show all posts
Showing posts with label boys. Show all posts

14.2.08

V For Valium

Estoy: Sugared out, becoming pink-o-phobic, and fulfilling my position as your resident cynic.
Currently Reading1: Airman, by Eoin Colfer. YA Adventure. 5/5
Pagan’s Vows and Pagan’s Scribe, by Catherine Jinks. YA historical fiction.
Books 3 and 4 in the Pagan Chronicles. 5/5.

Happy Valentines Day to all who celebrate it, and happy sugar fest to all who don’t really feel compelled but are surrounded by lovestruck ones. I fall in to the second category, personally, but don’t hold it against me. That's the reason behind the title—I almost needed Valium to make it through the day. My school decided to tell all girls to wear pink today and all guys to wear red. I felt surrounded and slightly scared. Needless to say, I wore black. Back on topic, though. In my opinion, Valentine’s Day is nothing more than another time for marketers to make a lot of money. Not that I’m against the idea of it—I do think that love is a good thing, despite the fact that it hasn’t found me yet2. However, Valentine’s Day as a day for lovers has no historic significance. And for all of the people I love, I don’t feel I need a day to remember them. I tell them I love them often. After all, they deserve more than one day. I know that for some of you, Valentine’s Day can be painful—Scott likes to call it “Singles Awareness Day”—but there’s no reason you can’t have fun today as well. Instead of focusing on the fact that you don’t have a significant other, take time to realize that you are loved by your friends and your parents. If nothing else, get on a huge sugar high.
I think I did I bit too much sugar-highing today, which is quite surprising. I didn’t really get that much candy…just a box of hearts from one of my closest friends, a bag of goodies and a sucker from other close friends, and candy in Spanish class. However, I’ve already eaten it all and am therefore a bit hyper. And it’s taking me awhile to type this, because my fingers are even more dyslexic than usual3. But I have laughed hard and often today, so that’s something.
DataMatch—ah, DataMatch4. I must tell you how this turned out. I’m not sure, but I think I did mention this in a previous entry. If not, go back, read the footnote, and then try to keep up as much as possible, kay? And if I didn’t mention it, I do apologize. Anyhow, I’m sure you’re just dying to know who was on my list. Well, the first one happened to be the boyfriend of one of my friends—Wiley5. Well, I wasn’t going to tell him, but as Katie (his girlfriend) was reading my list, he saw. Everyone else in the band found this to be hilarious, but Wiley and I were kind of…not so thrilled. Not that we hate eachother, but we seem to be in a perpetual argument. I mean, of all the people on my list, he is probably the one that I like the most. Not that I would date him, really, even if he wasn’t going out with Katie. My list seems to be filled with nerds, which I guess is fitting. I’m a pretty big nerd myself. My top match in the whole school was sophomore Connor. According to Katie (who is on swim team), he’s a good swimmer and also pretty cute. Not that I’m going to go seek out any person off of the printout.
I suppose I should be off now to do some valentine-y things, so I hope you all have a good rest of the day. Until next time…
xxx
Caryn

1 And Currently Read, since I don’t blog nearly as much as I read. Just so you know that I really don’t read 3 books at once.
2
Ah, how tragic, right? No, not really. I am still young and face it, everyone gets their share of heartbreak.
3 Believe me, fingers can be dyslexic. It’s a special talent that mine have.
4 For Datamatch, everyone interested in participating fills out a questionnaire. You are then matched with people who have similar interests and given the percentage of things you have in common. Just for the record, my highest was 57%.
5 Wiley was the guy, for the record. Not the friend.

7.12.07

Poem And More...

Sorry I haven't posted recently...but nothing exciting has been happening. Just same old same old, klutzy behaviors and all. And a couple of interesting days in band. Well, here's something I wrote yesterday. Hope you like it...until next time.
xxx
Caryn
"Like That"
7.12.2007
And it's not like I care "like that"
But just for once want you to bleed
Now tell me, does it seem so bad
To ask what you once had of me?
Because so many years I cried
I guess I should be glad they're gone
But with this feeling here inside
Not being there is just so wrong.
So ask me, "What's wrong with your brain?
Does something make you want to bleed?
Are you a sucker for the pain
That I push down inside of me?"
And now I don't know what to say
As I see how I really am,
Just wishing I could have my way
Without a longing for your hand.
But did I really give you up?
Or have I loved you all along?
My other feeble stabs at love
A shield for my only one?
And do you think of me that way?
I know that, once upon a time
I ruined cause I wouldn't say
That you were really on my mind.
And are we meant to be or cursed?
One of those love that never happened
Though it was so clear from the first
One of those loves that just should have been?
I've now exhausted all my love
So I slip back to my standby
Of lapping adoration up
And then I turn away and cry.
-Caryn
Kudos to you if you can figure out what this means...and where I really stand. I don't get it yet.
You may know who this is about, though.